COMMISSIONS- OPEN

Hey! Hey you! YEAH, YOU! I wanna draw for you! And so I'm opening these commissions so that I can do that...and not die of starvation!

Here we go:

My rate is a flat $10 for anything. I will draw anime, tattoo commissions (complete with stencil) chibis, conceptualism, and realism (if you want a portrait of someone you know, email me a photo with your order and I'll draw from the photo). I do digital transactions, meaning I will send you the digital artwork, unless you want something a little more physical. In that case, YOU will have to provide shipping rates, and YOU will have to provide a small fee for the use of ink, paper, materials, etc. If you would like a physical piece, please note me about it, and we can talk.

I am now using the slot format for commissions. I am filling 5 slots at a time, first come-first serve. Payment through Paypal can take place anytime from when I begin the drawing (I will notify you with a comment or note that your commission has been started) to the time when I finish it. However, I will not send it to you until the payment transaction has been completed. It will come in the form of a .jpg file to your email address, but if you want to make a print from it at your own discretion, request the original .psd.

I will notify my clients with the payment address and other various legalities. Please, when placing an order (which you can do on this journal in a comment or through a note), be clear and concise with your description. I won't even pay attention to something that looks like, "OMG hee hee draw me a picture of a girl with black hair XDDroflcopter" etc. I WILL IGNORE THAT AND FILL THE SLOT WITH THE NEXT REQUEST, so don't take chances!

Thank you for doing business with me!!


SLOTS:

Slot 1- OPEN
Slot 2- OPEN
Slot 3- OPEN
Slot 4- OPEN
Slot 5- OPEN

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So...hi. I'm still alive. Kinda.

Basically- I had serious life issues that had to be taken care of, then school started, then I lost my muse, then I found my muse, then I fell seriously sick, then I got better, then I got sick again, and then my computer exploded, forcing me to halt all projects and reload. On the upside with that last one, it was "just the funeral I've been waiting for," if I may quote Metallica. I HATE VISTA. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT. It doesn't work. And that's what I had. And I managed to get ONE bad file off the internet (first virus in 4 years, go me!) and Vista self-destructed and ate its own OS files. [insert headdesk here]. So now I've got XP back, and it's running f**kin FLAWLESSLY. Thank God.

Otherwise I've been...miserable. I'm not gonna lie. The stress is just piling up to the point where I'm stuck in this...fog. Simple things I KNOW how to do aren't making sense. I freeze in conversation, I'm forgetting what I'm doing and what I'm talking about...it's a mess. I'm better physically from the worst flu of my life, but mentally I'm a wreck. Emotional wreckage comes in waves. I just don't know how much more I can take, and what's gonna happen when I'm past the breaking point. I'm strong, but not that strong. I won't go into detail on a public journal about what's going on (learned my lesson from that the hard way), but if we've known each other for a while and you would like to know, feel free to drop me a note. I'd be happy to tell ya.

The bright light in my life, right now, is just my guitars. That's it. Everything else can go to hell, as long as I've got my guitars, a set of working hands and fingers, and a voice. Which, miraculously, I possess. I'm going to see Metallica for the second time this year in NY in November, but because it feels so far away, not even thinking about THAT is cheering me up. And, if you know me, you KNOW that means something's seriously wrong.

To the friends that were with me Wednesday the 7th- I'm still sorry. I didn't know that was going to happen, honestly. If there's anything I can do to make it up to either of you, let me know.

To my wonderful watchers- I'm sorry I haven't been as active as I expected to be. I hope you can understand and forgive me.

To all my friends- thank you for being my friends. I don't know what I'd do without you. You make me feel human, instead of like a monster.

Anyway, enough with all of that. I don't mean to bring anyone else down. Um...updates, updates...Got some more MetalliChibis that I'm inking now, got some other work I'll be finishing shortly, and I've got a new hobby- 3D modeling. I've got myself a copy of The Sims 3, and I dove right into learning meshing and editing the first week I had the game, which was the last week of August. So far none of my projects have been momentous- just me lengthening or shortening meshes, adding logos, recoloring, etc. But I'm doing a set of "Hollywood harem" pants right now (the stereotypical see-through, poofy pants in movies with an Arabian setting), and the matching shirt that are both completely new meshes. If any of you play TS3 and do any meshing...I'm still lost on hair meshing and packaging...wanna break it down for me in a tutorial? *begs*

Anyway, school...is too easy. even a boatload of makeup work from being out for two weeks straight didn't keep me occupied for long. And I'm a junior. I wish it was harder. I'm going to most likely be inducted into the NHS, as well. I'm a nominee. wheee.

BUT, I will say this. All of this bickering between you other juniors in shop has got to stop. We, and I will include myself in this because I'm bitchin' about it on the internet like a fool in the first place, are acting like 2-year-old idiots. Why can't we just get along, or stay out of each others way? Why do we have to make drama and gossip? If we all just made the effort, or steered clear of one another, we'd be much better people for it. And, a note to the one particular junior getting on my nerves: YOU DO NOT NEED TO BE IN MY AREA DOING MY JOB AND BADMOUTHING ME. I've never done a thing to hurt you, I believe. Why must you treat me the way you do? Is it because of that one incident freshman year? I won't say it was entirely your fault, but I WAS the victim, not you. I'm over it. I talk to everyone and am friends with everyone involved now, except you, and not for lack of an attempt. Whatever it is that I've done to piss you off, I'd like to put it behind us somehow, and just be able to tolerate each other, even if that just means that you stay in your area in shop, and I'll stay in mine. Thanks.

And now, if I may bitch and moan aimlessly once again like a fool, I'd like to say this to the entire world: STOP RUBBING IT IN MY FACE THAT I'M SINGLE, WORLD!!! Does anyone actually think for a minute that I'm single and lonely BY CHOICE?! Fuckin' moronic universe, I'm ugly, abrasive, occasionally inappropriate, dark, different, clumsy, and far from feminine. But I'm also compassionate, caring, involved, ambitious, understanding, and I strive to find the balance in everything. Yes, I make mistakes. Yes, I let my temper get the better of me far too much. Yes, I dress like a guy, except that on occasion I wear floor length skirts. And NO, I do not have a boyfriend. Does that mean that everyone I've ever met can take all of that and shove it back into my heart as a knife? NO. It's not my damn fault! I'm not the type of girl who looks for a high school fling. I'm not looking for a one-night stand. I can't stand PDA, and I wouldn't care if we ever had sex. I'm not looking to be the strong one, but I like wearing the pants equally with people. I can say that I'm down-to-earth and well rounded, because I know me, and that's not exaggerating or bragging. I just want a guy who completes me. Not my opposite (because I'd probably murder my opposite before our one week anniversary), but someone like me, who understands me. Is it my fault, or anyone's fault really, that that person hasn't come around yet? No. But does that give anyone in my life the right to constantly push their ideals for me, and their good fortune onto me? NO. NOT AT ALL. So just stop. Stop with the "so your sister has had x-amount of boyfriends, why haven't you?" And stop with "well, my whatever is great for me, how's yours? Oh, sorry, I forgot." I'm not going to settle, I'm going to wait, painful and monotonous as that is. Because no one but the perfect guy would ever take me on as a girlfriend, anyway.

/endrant.

And now, with one more announcement, I will return you to your other daily activities. If you please, shoot over to my latest poll, and vote. I'm really stuck on what to do for a Halloween costume this year. Thanks.

-Sam

"New blood joins this earth,
And quickly he's subdued.
Through constant pained disgrace,
The young boy learns their rules."

-Metallica, "The Unforgiven"